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Rambling central! Take a seat while Lorenzo gives speeches about things that bug him, inspire him, or perhaps just intrigues him in general!

I'll try to keep this page very positive yet also including things that may tick me off in the art community. It's the rant section; it can't stand still on one (positive) topic. There's going to be some stinky stuff too! I'll try not to make that the purpose, though. ^^
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6-10-24!

Now when I tell you that this school year was the roughest year on my mental health in my life:

I just got through my sophomore year, and it really broke me. I had to adapt to a new school, new people, sudden popularity, etc. The amount of burnouts I've experienced through the beginning of the school year is jawdropping.
There were much more assignments than what I was preparing for, so much popularity after years at an old school where people disgraced you for being friends with an emo queer kid. I remember having breakdowns after school because of the popularity and the audience that came with it, and the dedication it takes to rise with people's expectations of you and how you are expected to act and speak to them.
Then I chose to join an object camp in February, excited by the idea. It was a roleplay and writing camp, where it was more of a story than a competition. Needless to say that I was intrigued. I've had experience with roleplay in 2018-21 because that was truly a time for MANY young people to get into writing and roleplay (good or not good. I was fortunate unenough to be on the good side of the roleplay community with other minors my age, thank goodness).
I chose to get back into writing collaboratively with other people in this object camp on Discord! It's called AoT, and I'll choose to keep it boiled down to that, not going into specifics. AoT had the explicit warning that it was an angst and horror camp, and I thought that was okay! So I signed up! ...as an objectsona. Worst mistake of my life--I was NOT ready to traumatize the guy. I had full on breakdowns because this objectsona was meant to represent ME, and it was ME projecting onto him. So that just really sucked.
I think I joined AoT and got obsessed with it because of how burnt out I was PRIOR to AoT. I just really needed a vine to hold onto or else I'd just fall. I think of AoT as my 505, something hurting me yet keeping me going. I owe the camp a lot for what it has sparked in me. The breakdowns and sense of URGENT PANIC amused me because no other work has ever done that. Hurting Patton (objectsona) hurt me, sure, but writing for AoT was truly an exercise. In fact, I think I learned so much about moving forward for writing characters BECAUSE of AoT.
Hell, AoT inspired me SO MUCH that I started my OWN object camp, aimed to be ligter, yet VERY lore-heavy.

I want to thank everybody a part of AoT. They did a damn good job at making a burned out student and writer spark back to life.

This year I discovered an admiration for Bo Burnham, during my burnouts. I related to the man and agreed with a lot of what he had to say.
When I couldn't get things done; schoolwork, music, art, etc., I'd just turn on What and sit back.

I'm typing too much, sorry!

2023 and early 2024 was just BRUTAL on me. Burnout, seasonal depression, outbursts of rage sometimes, it was just something I was not ready for and it really impacted me as a person.
But I got through it!! I can look back, and I can finally reminisce and take my well-deserved break after that stampeed. I'm finally being more active on Twitter, which has seemed to help me a lot over the few weeks! It means I am well enough to peek from behind the curtain and into the world again. I've written a few paragraphs in Titles are Stupid. Not a lot of progress, but hey I'm trying my best to recover from such a year.
I think I'm done writing, thank you for whoever is reading this. <3 I means a lot.